episode 4 – unwilling partnerWith a growing sense of unease, Sandy confronts the reality of what her teasing behavior provokes.
With a growing sense of unease, Sandy confronts the reality of what her teasing behavior provokes.
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A Need For Help

Barrooms must stop serving drinks at 2 o’clock in the morning. So Sandy… stuffs her tips in her bosom and calls a rideshare service to get home. One night, a handsy customer follows her outside to continue his fondling. She freezes with the sound of her mother’s warning the first night Sandy slept outdoors. Then she recalls the advances when she was a masseuse.
The customer appears to be making inroads before she returns to reality, swinging to slap him as hard as she can. However, her hand misses, and the man vanishes. She looks down and sees a burly guy manhandling the cowering attacker.
Sandy straightens her outfit and attempts to appear tough.
“Thanks for the assist, but I can handle myself.”
“All right. This isn’t a safe place alone so late. Next time I’ll stand back and see how you handle it.”
“Wait. Perhaps we got off on the wrong foot. I’ve seen you around but don’t know you, so I have to be defensive. I’m Sandy. What’s your name?”
“You can call me… Crowbar.” As if making up the nickname on the fly.
“That’s an interesting… name. I work here at the bar. When I get off around this time, perhaps you can make sure I get home safely.”
He stops close enough to make her uncomfortable. “That’s what I do. But it’ll cost you.”
Her heart pounds in her chest. Could she say no? Would he let her go if she wanted to? She doubts it.
“Of course,” she replies calmly while turning her back to pull out a twenty-dollar bill, knowing he could be a bigger threat than the first guy. He invades her space, looking over her shoulder to get a good look at where she keeps her cash.
“Let’s say I give you this for keeping an eye out until my ride comes.”
“I’ll take that for now, but my services require much more.” The next day, she exits the bar with an additional twenty dollars. He snatches it before saying, “Now let’s go home.”
“Wait a minute. I can give you another ten dollars. That’s all.”
“Get in the car. We’ll settle up at your place.”
Sandy objects to being shoved inside. “Wait. I’m not one of those ladies on the corner.”
A Time to Keep Quiet
Sandy looks at the puny driver, who’s no match for the mounds of flesh tilting the car to one side. Either the seatbelt won’t fit, or Crowbar doesn’t fasten it to chase after her if she jumps out at a stoplight. She fidgets all the way home, wondering if she should have the driver head to a different destination. A large hand blocks her phone screen. Perhaps when the door opens, she could outrun her “protector,” but he knows where she works.
Hoping for compassion as the car nears her house, she sheepishly says what all her barroom teasing contradicts: “I haven’t… done this before.”
The admission doesn’t change his countenance. “Nice. That makes your payment more valuable. Doesn’t it?”
Her heart pounds harder than it did when she fled her father’s house. The car door opens, and she hopes Crowbar will stay behind, but two sets of footprints echo toward her personal sanctuary behind the garage. Like a crowbar, this man is prying himself into her life, and each step feels like one toward her gallows….
Years of streetwise avoidance have led to this—acquiescing without a fight.
When his black leather jacket drops, Sandy utters one more plea through quivering lips: “I’m sorry for bringing you all the way here, but I don’t think I’m ready tonight.”
Ignoring her objection, he urges, “Get on with it. You owe me—big time.”
With nowhere left to go, Sandy thinks, “I worked too hard to get this place, so running back to the streets isn’t an option.” She then concedes to her fate, “Yes, I guess I do owe you…. Just don’t hurt me.”
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Unsuccessful persuasion leads her into a dissociative trance. She imagines a romantic courtship with flowers—a step they’ve skipped. Gasping for breath beneath the crushing weight, she pretends she’s snorkeling on a Jamaican island honeymoon. She can hear the tropical music in her head. Suddenly it stops. Whatever happened is over. Her breathing returns to normal.

Sandy has an unanticipated night guest.
Her mind drifts elsewhere, already denying what’s just happened. By morning, Crowbar is gone. Within days, the truth sinks in—she’s not on an island of pleasure. With this being what men expect from all her teasing, it’s a wonder this hasn’t happened sooner…. With her limited experience, she wonders if women pretend to like this thing that seems to benefit men most.
He tinkles in her sink before leaving without shutting the door. She gets up to close it and washes herself before climbing beneath the covers. The women on the street were right. She’s become like one of them, only her payment is protection.
Sandy is a victim of manipulation who would rather believe that Crowbar sped up the inevitable. This is the price of protection. In another context, her mother once told her, “If you’re going to pay for something, you should enjoy it.”
The joy has yet to arrive. To regain control of her destiny, she must learn to manipulate others as easily. Yet, one evening alters her view of his visits.
He asks while extending gift-wrapped, expensive blue lingerie—his solution for every major problem, “You enjoy our time together, right?”
It’s a clever question. An affirmative response would condone all his actions. Yet, his timing was just after her first guilty pleasure. Sandy thinks to herself, “If this is possible, perhaps I just need more experience.” She recoils from her objection, viewing her acceptance as a passage to adulthood, desirability, and a glimmer of hope for learning how to love.
This skewed sense of wrongness causes her to test the non-condemning words: “The timing of your question has totally changed my response. I would welcome more visits like today.”
“Good. I got something else for you. Here. These pills are yours.”
“But I don’t do drugs,” she responds with apprehension.
“They don’t get you high. They prevent babies. Unless you wanna get pregnant?”
“No, of course not. Thanks. I’ll take them.”
It’s a bit of relief because she had made no such plans. But now she wonders if the precaution is too late. Either way, she’s now in a relationship with strings attached. Her expectation of additional rewarding encounters has been an illusion. She told Crowbar to keep returning under false pretenses, so she tries to accept her role in his life.
With comfort in the routine growing, Sandy straightens her clothes and pulls the curtain back to watch her delighted Crowbar leave. His heavy steps fade into the night. Acceptance leads to healing, she reasons.
On a day off, she goes to get a tattoo on her back. The scraping of the needle feels rebellious, but also therapeutic. It transforms her emotional pain into something beautiful.

Sandy receives a back tattoo.
During the grimacing, Sandy reflects, realizing that in her moment of surrender, Crowbar saw something else entirely. In his eyes, her resignation became affection—her silence, an invitation. He’s taken her survival as proof they belong together, and now there’s no way to untangle the lie from the truth. She knows everything comes at a cost on the streets, but this? This cost is steep. Fortunately, the tattoo artist can’t hear her muttering over the Jamaican music….
“Daddy said adults have… needs. Perhaps that’s all men want—someone to fulfill a need. Maybe I expect too much from a relationship,” she thinks, forcing the words to justify the empty ache inside her. “It’s just a need someone like me has to fill. But perhaps there’s a way to use it to my advantage.”
There’s a three-day gap in Crowbar’s visits. She should feel relief, but she feels an unexplainable longing. When he finally arrives, Sandy chastises him.
“You should let me know if you’re not coming, so I won’t leave the door unlocked. I thought… I don’t know… maybe you were no longer satisfied. But obviously that isn’t true. It’s been a long day.”
Continued…
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